Currently Reading #2

"A Clash of Kings" by George R.R. Martin - The second book in the Game of Thrones series. I'm really trying to like this series. I feel like so many people watch the TV show that it's almost pointless to summarize. In this particular book, winter is approaching, two great leaders are now dead, six factions struggle for control of a divided land. If you would like to read a full summary, I will link you to Goodreads, here. They are great books, especially if you like fantasy, it just seems to take me forever to get through them.

"War and Peace" By: Leo Tolstoy - This book. This huge, daunting, old, 1200 page book. I really like classics. I think everyone should read classics. This is definitely a step away from "Frankenstein" or "Treasure Island" (although I recommend everyone read those too). This book is BIG & it's not the most exciting read on the planet (at least not so far). I'm reading this book 3-15 pages a day. I'll get through it eventually, maybe in 6 months, maybe in 1 year. Reasons I am reading this book & you should try to read it too: 7 Reasons You Should Give War & Peace A Chance (besides being able to tell people that you've read it).

"Geek Girl" By: Holly Smale - I had mentioned before that I am usually always reading at least one fun, light, "girly" book. This is the one I'm currently digging into. This is a YA novel. Before you go ripping into me for reading books written for a demographic I am no longer included in, YA books are great, I was once a teenager & it's nice to read about the woes & problems of teens that are much more minuscule than my own. Also, if you are a female who claims to not like or read YA, you are definitely lying. This book is about a girl who is considered to be a geek by her peers, she is spotted one day by a top-modeling agent & she seizes this opportunity to re-invent herself. The book follows the disasters that ensue. I just started this book a couple of nights ago, so I can't say if I love it or hate it yet.

"Giant Days" By: John Allison, Whitney Cogar & Lissa Treiman - I haven't included any comic books yet, although I do read quite a few of them. My current favorite series is "Giant Days", I am currently on the third book, which is the image shown above. I am impatiently awaiting the release of the fourth book in February. Susan, Daisy & Esther are three college students with dorm rooms next to each other who become best friends. It's about their personal explorations and re-inventing themselves, in the midst of all the chaos that comes with college life. It's hilarious, the artwork is great & it's one of those comics that I just can't put down & will probably re-read more than once.

- C

What Do You Want To Do With Your Life?

. . . It's such a loaded question. It's a hard question to answer for a lot of people, including myself. 

I am 26 years old & I am barely grasping what I want to do with my life. 

Why do we put so much pressure on the need to know? 
Not only that but once you pass a certain age, you start to be shamed for not knowing.

“The great pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.”
- Walter Bagehot

I was always jealous of my friends & peers who did so well in school not because they tried really hard but because it just came easy to them. They could do well even if they didn't exert any effort. I was always jealous of those kids who knew what they wanted to do & what they wanted to go to college for when we were in high school. I always wish that I could have been so lucky. It's so much pressure on a kid, who barely knows what they want to do tomorrow, let alone for the rest of their life. I've never been a very great student. I don't think it's because I'm not smart, I think it's because I've always lacked the attention span. I always had to work what seemed like five times harder than everyone else in order to pull A's & B's. Other kids made it seem so easy, when for me it wasn't. I never thought that was very fair. Now that I've gotten older & I've thought about it more, I think that classroom learning isn't really adapted to suit everyone's learning styles. Everyone learns a little differently & it would probably be unfair to educator's to make them cater to every learning style - but at the same time it's unfair to students who struggle because of it. I'm sure there are a variety of other reasons that I struggled in school but that's too much to go into here. 

When I first graduated high school, I wanted to go to Cosmetology school. I even went with my grandma to tour a couple of them. I got told by various friends & ex-boyfriends that this was silly, it was stupid, it wasn't a real career, no one wants to date a girl who wants to be a hair stylist, I should go to a "real" college. I'm kind of glad that I didn't end up doing it, I don't think it was my calling - but at the same time, all that discouragement isn't something a 17 year old girl needs to hear. People are assholes. Seriously. Don't try to let other people decide what YOU want to do for you. They aren't going to be doing it, YOU are. So I went to "regular" school. I started at community college, aimed to either be an X-Ray Technician or an Ultrasound Technician but I struggled at first & I dropped out halfway through my first semester. Then when I was 19, I decided to try a regular university, this time I was a biology major, pre-optometry. Being that I'm terrible at math & not dedicated or focused enough to make it through all the science curriculum, after 2 semesters I ended up back at community college. This time I was floating, taking basic courses & electives in an attempt to buy myself some time & decide what I'd like to do. I floated for awhile & finally decided on a business degree. It seemed generic but it could get me a job. After taking a couple of pre-requisite Accounting courses & doing really well I decided Accounting it was. I'm not really sure why I thought this was such a great idea, I'm absolutely awful at math. Now I'm about 9 courses away from achieving my B.S. in Human Resource Management. I have spent 7, going on 8 years trying to get a freaking Bachelor's degree . . . Here I am. Human Resources is something I can excel in, I'm great at paper-pushing, although I know the majority of people can't stand those kinds of jobs. I would still love to do something else, I just haven't really figured out what that is yet, I'm not sure I ever will.

I think the whole point of this blog post is that if you're in a similar situation as me, DO NOT let other people make you feel bad about your journey. Some people get their easily & some people have to do it the hard way. Some people face a ton of curve balls trying to get to where they want to be. I have heard so many jokes about how I've been in school for so long I could be a doctor. It's not OK, people tell me things like that all the time in an attempt to be funny & then I cry later when I'm by myself. I have shed so many tears over feeling like I'm flailing helplessly in a sea of successful peers, about failed classes, poor test grades, about not being where I want to be in life. When you finally feel a passion for something & you are finally handed that piece of paper that says "I DID IT", it will be SO much more worth it for you because you worked so hard to get it. 

Don't let other people bring you down or make you feel like shit. It's your life, not theirs. 

Here are some links to some helpful articles: 

- C

Plants I Have Not Killed

This blog post is for the person who loves plants but can't keep them alive. I am by no means a good plant owner. I do not have a green thumb & I have managed to kill many plants. I started to do a lot of research into plants that are almost impossible to kill. I've been collecting them one by one & here is a short list of the only plants I own. So far, all of these plants I have managed to keep alive & in good shape. They are all very low maintenance. I love plants & I want to be able to have them (without killing them), so if you can relate to this, you should consider these gems. I do have plans to expand my small indoor plant empire, now that I feel like I have a grasp on the keeping-plants-alive thing.

Snake Plant - Some people also know this as being called Mother-In-Laws Tongue. This is the first plant I decided to buy when researching into plants that are difficult to kill. If you google that, this one comes up on almost every list & article you find. It's tall & spiky & stiff, I put it in a well-draining soil mixture of regular potting soil, perlite & those little pebble rocks you put in the bottom of fish tanks. This plant needs a soil that drains well because it can be prone to root rot. It doesn't need a ton of light, although I keep it on my coffee table next to my balcony door, so that it gets indirect sunlight through out the day. It needs watering about every 2 weeks - but sometimes I forget so it gets watered closer to around every 3 weeks. That's the glory, you can forget & it won't die. You can fertilizer every 1-2 months. I found this plant at my local Lowe's. It's supposed to be a pretty slow growing plant & from what I can tell from the information I've found online, it's supposed to get huge. Since I've gotten it, it's gotten pretty tall (unevenly, as you can tell from the photo) & has sprouted off around 3-4 baby plants.

Philodendron - My philodendron is a heartleaf philodendron or sweetheart plant. This plant also does bright to moderate light but tolerates low light, it sits next to my snake plant next to my balcony door. It needs a little more water than the other plants I own, the soil needs to be kept fairly moist - it needs a peat moss based soil but it still needs drainage or it can get root rot. It's also tolerant of dry air but does like humidity, so it enjoys being misted occasionally. This plant is a vining plant, so if you aren't about that - then don't bother. Mine has grown a little but not much since I've gotten it. Yellow leaves are a sign of overwatering & you can fertilize this plant once a month in spring through fall. You should also let the soil dry between waterings in the winter time. This particular plant I didn't buy in town, I actually ordered it on Etsy from Hirt's Gardens. I recommend the shop & will be ordering from them again in the future.

ZZ Plant - This is my newest plant, also found at my local Lowe's. It hasn't grown much since I've gotten it but I do keep it in a place in my kitchen where it doesn't get a ton of light. It does get some indirect light that comes in from my balcony door - just like the other two plants - it just gets less as it's further away. I haven't yet re-potted this one either, because I'm extremely lazy - but I need to. This plant can do bright to moderate light (although it shouldn't be put in direct light) & will still do well receiving very low light. Only water when the soil feels dry, so again every couple of weeks will do it. This plant shouldn't get fertilizer, it doesn't like it, so 1-2 times a year, if at all & only in the summer. This plant also needs quick draining soil - refer to the soil mix I used for my snake plant.

Bunny Ear Cactus - For a cactus, this one is kind of high maintenance. Although, I didn't know this at the time of purchasing it. This one is also a Lowe's purchase. I used the same soil again for this cactus as I did for the snake plant. This fucker has the most horrible pricklies that get all over everything & you'll never get them out of your fingers, so be careful. I had to use a washcloth to handle it when I was re-potting. This cactus needs full light & warm temps 70-100 for the entire summer, I actually kept this cactus out on my balcony in direct sunlight. The high maintenance part is that it needs a winter cycle or it dies. In winter it needs low temps between 50-65 & no watering, if you don't do this it will die in the spring. I got this cactus in spring of this year & am working (er, or not working?) on it's winter cycle right now, so if it dies in the spring I'll be pissed. I'll let you know. 

I hope that, like me, if you are terrible at keeping plants alive - this helped you at least a little.

- C

Favorites: November 2016

 A bunch of random things that I'm currently digging. 

Tamagotchi - I have an Amazon problem. This is a result of that. I had a weird sentimental moment where I went hunting them down on the internet to see if they still existed. Unfortunately they no longer sell them as "animals" (back in the day I had a turtle) - now they are "Tamagotchi Friends" - which are weird people creatures. I'm really enjoying it, even though the majority of people are making fun of me. I've managed to kill it once so far . . . You can order the one I got here

Daria: The Complete Animated Series - What a show. I hadn't watched it in a very long time but I keep getting compared to Daria by my coworkers & it made me want to watch it again. I'm not as smart as Daria but I definitely have the very non-enthused, indifference to everything & everyone personality type.  I guess that's how I relate. I've read a lot about how Daria is bland & condescending & a giant bitch. I would like to think that I'm not those things. You can also get this box set on Amazon for $14.50. So really, it's so cheap that you have no excuse to not buy it. 

Gilmore Girls - I didn't get on this bandwagon until about 2 months ago. I just started season 3 but I'm already so obsessed. It's such a cozy feel-good show. I love Luke & Lorelai & I'm definitely Team Jess (Although I haven't been introduced to Logan yet). I've been watching it on Netflix in preparation for "Gilmore Girls: A Year In The Life" - a Netflix reunion consisting of 4 90-minute movies. It's easily become one of my favorite shows of all time. If I'm feeling sad all I have to do is throw this show on.

French's Classic Yellow Mustard - Yeah I'm fucking weird, I'm aware. I love mustard. LOVE it. Some people are mustard people, some people are mayo people & some people hate both. I am a mustard person. I'm not really sure what this says about me. The point is, I've been craving mustard almost everyday for a week so I've been continuously eating veggie sandwiches drenched in mustard. You can judge me for this all you want, I know you're going to. 

Scrunchies - A throwback to the 90's, scrunchies always remind me of my mother. She probably still wears them. Recently I've been using them a lot more than regular hair ties, I think they can be comfier than regular hair ties because they are softer & stretchier so it's difficult to get them so tight that they pull the hair out of your scalp. So there's that. I ordered mine on Amazon - because if you couldn't tell already I order basically everything on Amazon. I have these ones & these ones. You can probably also just get them at Target if you aren't too lazy to leave your house. 

Annie's Bunny Grahams - These are just over-priced Teddy Grahams but you don't have to feel as bad about eating them because they're organic. They are delicious, worth the money & 10 out of 10 would both recommend & buy again. EAT THEM. 

Maybelline Line Stiletto - I've recently started doing winged eyeliner again after about a 2 year hiatus. This is my all-time favorite liquid eyeliner, I can't do a wing with anything else. I've tried so many liquid eyeliners including a lot of stupid expensive ones from Urban Decay, Stila, Eyeko, etc. This will always be my fave & it's super cheap. It's a very flexible felt tip with intense pigment. 

Clinique High Impact Mascara - I've always heard of this mascara but never thought to give it a chance. I found a sample of it that had just been laying around my bathroom. It's amazing if you like volume. It's a little more natural looking, so if you like dramatic spider-lashes, this won't be for you. 

Lancome Blush in Aplum - I feel like all photos I can find of this are a bit darker than it actually looks in person. It's a matte mauve-plum shade that looks so natural & pretty on. It's my favorite fall & winter shade, so I've been using it every single day for the past month.

Music Favorites 
Click on the picture to be linked to Spotify!

I also have a "Rainy Day" playlist on Spotify that I've been listening to a ton.

I'm sure you can guess what my sole dislike is for this month, I'm still trying to pretend it's not real.

- C

Currently Reading #1

"A Game of Thrones"by: George R.R. Martin - To be honest, I have been reading this book for like, I don't know, 6 months now? So this one isn't just for the month of September, it's an on-going read. I tried watching the show & I had a hard time getting into it. People are incessantly bothering me to read it or watch it since everyone is in love with it. I finally broke down & decided to try to read it. I actually really like it. Nothing is keeping me from finishing this book other than my inability to only read one book at one time & because school & work keep me from reading as much as I would like to. I only have a few chapters left but have somehow misplaced the book now. I'll finish it as soon as I find it. If you had a hard time getting into the TV series, I would suggest trying to read it. If you don't like reading, don't even bother. It's long & you'll never get through it. I don't think I really need to provide a summary for what this is about as I think we all have heard of Game of Thrones. 

"Attempting Normal" By: Marc Maron - Me & my boyfriend went & saw Marc Maron live a couple of weeks ago. My boyfriend is a regular listener of his podcast & watches his comedy specials. I had never heard of / seen any of his comedy until we saw him live. His style is black comedy / satire, so I don't think it's for everyone but I thought he was really good, in a cranky old man kind of way. I am now a fan. After seeing the show, I immediately ordered his book on Amazon. It was a quick read, it only took me two days to finish it. I love to read books written by comedians (maybe I should do an entire blog post on my favorites). The book is set up in an autobiographical or memoir manner, with different chapters correlating to different times or events in his life. I laughed out loud many times while reading it. I highly recommend it!

 "The Bride Wore Size 12" By: Meg Cabot - I am always reading some fun, light-hearted "girly" novel. This is the last book in Meg Cabot's "Heather Wells" series. The books are a comedic mystery / suspense series. I won't give too much away but Heather Wells is a has-been celebrity who peaked in her teens & now works in a residence hall at a university & odd things keep happening. There's a new mystery in every book of the series. I haven't finished this particular book yet but I have been in love with the entire series so far. They are so funny & the characters are so relatable! 

"The Vanishing Hitchhiker: American Urban Legends & Their Meanings" By: Jan Harold Brunvand - This book was actually the textbook for a 400 level American Studies course I took a few years ago called "Urban Legends". We read excerpts from this book but not the book in it's entirety. It's a really interesting subject so I decided to pick this back up & read it through. This book touches on all of the popular & well-known urban legends - automobile legends (like the vanishing hitchhiker), teen horror legends (like the hook) & other subjects like food contamination. It attempts to break-down & analyze the original source of these legends, as well as talks about how important story-telling is culturally. It's a great read if you're into both urban legends & the analysis / critical-thinking aspect of storytelling. 

Have you read any of these books? If so, what are your thoughts? 
What have you been reading recently? I am always open to recommendations! 

- C  

An Ode to Turbie Twists

Disclaimer: I wrote this late at night after I took a Melatonin & was super drowsy. Why I'm posting it on the internet now is a question I'm asking myself repetitively as I type this . . .

Oh Turbie Twists! 
You keep my wet hair from dripping all over me, from dampening my pillowcases, from making me cold! 

Oh colorful microfiber Turbie Twists! 
Now that you're in my life, I can't imagine a shower without you! You keep me carefree!

Oh soft & fuzzy Turbie Twists! 
You hide in the aisles of Bed Bath & Beyond, you lurk in the 3rd party sellers of Amazon. How you are not more popular & more readily available, I do not know - everybody needs a chance at your magic!

Oh Turbie Twists! 
You have made washing my hair complete! 

Here is a lovely after-shower photo of me in a Turbie Twist. 

I really do love Turbie Twists. It's not a joke. I own about 10 of them. 
I also actually googled "how to write an ode" while writing this. 
I don't think I was very successful but I think I got my point across. 

2nd Disclaimer: Me & this post are both NOT sponsored by Turbie Twist. However, if they want to send me some, I am completely open to it. 

- C

Generational Confusion

I am Generation Y or a millennial. 

. . . I didn't know this until maybe two weeks ago . . . 

I decided to do some research into finding out what generation I was a part of. Only to find out that I am a Millennial & was completely unaware of it. It also helped me learn that I am not alone in this & that if you were born earlier on in Generation Y, you also probably had no clue you were considered a Millennial. Most people I have brought this up to in my age range had no idea. I personally was always under the impression that Millennials were younger than me. That generation is actually Generation Z. For example, my youngest sister, who is 16 would be a part of Generation Z. She was born in 2000. 

So, in seeing all of these articles about how Millennials are self-entitled narcissists, I thought it referred to anyone who was currently in their teen years, or possibly entering college now. I had no idea that it also included me & anyone who was currently up to 8 years older than me . . . 

For some reason this hit me like a ton of bricks. I guess because being a Millennial carries such a negative connotation. It's like finding out you've been sorted into Hufflepuff (sorry Hufflepuffs). It's hard not to be offended when you can't help being born into a generation that comes with a blanket description of being spoiled, self-entitled & lazy. Maybe I feel offended because I'm still working on a college degree & don't feel like I'm contributing to society, so it's just an extra reason for me to feel bad about myself. I don't mean for this to be entirely negative, this is just my thoughts & feelings. I'm sure that someone else who is a Millennial might read this & think I'm slandering my own generation or someone will read this & think I'm an idiot for not even knowing which generation I'm a part of. That's ok. 

While I come to terms with this, here are a ton of articles & resources you should check out: 

- C

Favorites: July 2016

July Favorites

My faaaaavorites for the month of Julyyyy. 
These are the things that I liiiiiike. 

Frank Lip Scrub & Balm Duo - I love this stuff. I am one of those people whose lips peel when I put almost anything on them & are constantly chapped. This is my most recent finding of things that actually works on my lips. This now totals 3 things I can put on my lips without them trying to kill themselves. If you would like me to talk further about this, let me know. The scrub is sugary & coffee-y but not overwhelming, just sweet. The balm is my favorite part. It's a really thick petroleum-esque  balm that smells slightly of coffee. All that matters is, it works. Note: I say that the balm is petroleum-esque so you understand the texture but it doesn't have petroleum in it, mostly Lanolin.

Mary Kay CC Cream & Mary Kay Microdermabrasion Plus Set - I am not the type of person who ever would have thought I would like Mary Kay. I'm just being 100% honest. I have a friend who sells it & I have honestly been hooked / in love with a lot of the products ever since she introduced me to it, especially the skincare. The first item I'm mentioning here is the CC cream. This is one of my 3 favorite face products & I usually rotate just based on what I need (I'm  noticing a trend of 3's here . . .). It's on the sheer side, so if you need coverage this isn't for you. I am strictly a BB / CC / Tinted Moisturizer gal. This is my go-to running out the door face product! It evens me out, gives me some coverage but I still look natural & glowy. This CC cream is particularly hydrating, so it's also great for winter months. It has SPF 15 (I don't consider this high enough) - but I always wear SPF 30 day cream under my face makeup. The Microdermabrasion Plus Set I am addicted to. I use it around 3 times a week. I haven't used anything close to this in consistency. If you have used Philosophy's Microdelivery Exfoliating Wash- that's the closest thing I can think of but this is even scrubbier, more fine-grain & more amazing than that. *Update: This CC Cream started to make me really, really greasy (& I do not have oily skin), so I discontinued using it. I do however, still use & love the microdermabrasion.

Matrix Total Results "Moisture Me Rich" Shampoo & Matrix Total Resuls "So Long Damage" Conditioner - These were sent from the hair gods. I'm being serious. I have been struggling for awhile to find something that works for my hair. I have a rooty ombre blonde balayage (I know, so fancy) so my roots get oily fairly quickly while my ends tend to stay pretty dry. Previously I was using Joico "Color Endure" because my colorist recommended it. I haaaated it. Hated it so much. I'm not even going to link to it because you shouldn't buy it. It always left this weird residue in my hair that I couldn't get rid of or fix, no matter what I tried. I gave it to my sister, who also hated it, she gave it to my mom & my mom also hated it. THESE TWO ARE AMAZING. I decided to try them on a whim & purchased them in the smaller sizes first to ensure I would like them. They clean my hair while still leaving it soft & shiny & manageable & not frizzy. If you have dry ends, these are fantastic. Not to mention, the liters are a bit cheaper than some other salon lines. I always like re-stock my hair products when stores are having sales.

Beauty Blender - All that needs to be said about this is that I am way too late on the bandwagon. I am sure there are a million videos & blog posts on why this is amazing & how none of the dupes compare. It's ALL TRUE. You can make anything look fantastic when you apply it with this. I can never use a brush again.

Boscia Black Mask - That funky black peel off face mask. I do usually 2 - 3 face masks a week (I could probably do a post entirely about masks). I tried a deluxe sample, & I had to take the plunge & buy the full size. I've used this mask quite a bit this month. There aren't enough peel-off face masks in the world, at least ones that are worth buying. This one is immediately cool because it's black & who doesn't want to snapchat pics of this on their face? . . . I have extremely normal skin - so I feel like I'm not a great testament to skincare because most things will work for me. I think this definitely helps reduce excess oil, shrink & reduce pores & my skin always feel tighter & more radiant after an application. 
Plus, it's fun to peel-off, duh!

 Veggie Wash Organic - I am aware that this extremely random but you need this in your life.. I got a little trial size bottle at my local health foods store for 99 cents & now I don't think I can live without it. It removes wax, soil & chemicals from your produce. Basically you spray it all over the produce, rub it around & rinse it off. I can definitely feel a difference in the cleanliness of fruits & veggies when I use this vs when I don't. Plus, it's all natural & it has a light citrus smell. 

"Stranger Things" -  A Netflix Original Series - Honestly, if you haven't watched this, or heard about it, where have you been? If you're name isn't Patrick Star, then you probably don't live under a rock & should know about this show already. THIS IS THE BEST SHOW EVER. It's definitely a binger, once I started watching, I couldn't stop. It's creepy, while simultaneously giving me ALL THE FEELS. It's only 8 episodes, so you don't have to feel too bad if you bend up binge-watching it. It's a science fiction drama that takes place in the 80's about a boy who goes missing. That's all I'm going to say, you just need to watch it already. It leaves you wanting more & I could definitely re-watch it. According to the internet, season 2 is already confirmed. 

Pokemon Go! - IF YOU AREN'T PLAYING THIS, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? Even my mother is playing it. She's become a Pokemon crackhead. If you are a hater, just let me do what makes me happy. Even if what makes me happy is wasting my time playing a phone game & spending my hard-earned money on pokeballs. I'm Team Mystic! 

I'm going to leave you with my favorite video for the month of July, Jenna Marbles "Ultimate 100 Coats of Things". This video kills me, apologies if you aren't a fan of J.M. You should at least watch it for the entertainment value. I can't watch this without almost peeing my pants every time.

- C


Adulting (v): to do grown up things and hold responsibilities such as, a 9-5 job, a mortgage/rent, a car payment, or anything else that makes one think of grown ups.

When you're a kid, you spend time playing house and pretending to cook food on a plastic stove and writing fake checks on lined notebook paper for bills you don't have yet and fantasizing about how awesome it will be to be a grown up. Sometimes I wish I could go back to childhood and hit my small self on the head and tell myself to enjoy being a small person with no responsibilities. Being an adult isn't at all how you imagine it to be as a child. Bills are real and they stink because no one wants to spend their hard earned money on things like utilities. Also, you think you can eat whatever you want, whenever you want but your stomach isn't what it used to be and when you think it will be a good idea to eat a brownie for breakfast (because you know, you're an adult and you do what you want), you get an alarmingly awful stomach ache and your whole day is ruined. So yeah, junk food for breakfast is not a legitimate fantasy. 

I am 26 (going on 18, haha) and I am sitting here writing this blog post. I don't have a career, I'm not married and I live in a small apartment with my boyfriend. I work a part time job at a vet clinic and I am still struggling my booty off to get a degree online. I spend way more time thinking about things like what color to paint my nails next, how to level up on Pokemon Go or what's new to watch on Netflix than I do things I probably should be thinking about or doing (like homework). I eat way too much food on the go because I don't have any cooking skills, I am really awful at cleaning and putting away laundry (just ask my boyfriend) and I sleep a lot more than I probably should. Being bad at being an adult is very tiresome. I can't stay awake the way that I used to. Also, I'm starting to get wrinkles. So that's unfortunate. 

There is also no "Aha!" moment when you finally feel like an adult. They don't tell you that when you're a kid. I guess you just expect that someday you will be an adult and with that will come the internal feeling of being one. In some aspects, I feel like an adult because when I see teenagers doing silly things I find myself vocalizing what hooligans they are. That is something only actual adults do. On the other hand, I still mostly feel like I could be 18 or 19 on the inside and I just feel like a really large fake adult who just skates by pretending somehow. I'm sure at this point that this is just how life goes and when I'm 50 and feeling like I'm 25 on the inside, I'll be really sad because my wrinkly outer shell won't match my youthful inside feelings. 

I know that I shouldn't feel badly about where I am in my adult life. Everyone is on a different path and I know I will get to where I need to be eventually. Sometimes it's hard not to feel like crap about it when you see everyone around you excelling and you want to punch them in the face when you read their Facebook statuses. 

Here's a picture of a Unicorn because for some reason you read all of this and I feel like I need to give you something for your troubles. 

- C

How To: De-Stress

Most people deal with stress and anxiety in their day-to-day lives. It's awful and it sucks but a lot of us feel it. I feel it all the time. I'm so tense and high-strung all the time that I get back pain just from being constantly tense (I would get a massage, if the idea of a massage didn't give me anxiety). Do you see what I mean? Worrying and constantly dealing with our inner-voice running a marathon in our brains can leave us feeling worn out. This is going to be a collection of things that I have found work for me. When I feel like I just want to curl up in a ball and cry, or when I feel like I can't breathe and I'm on the brink of having some sort of full-fledged anxiety attack or when I'm just feeling flustered or frustrated. I'm currently dealing with some school-related stress.

Hopefully one of these things can help you! 

1. Take A Bath - This is probably one of my number one fixes, something about soaking in hot water just makes everything feel OK. It's soothing and it helps with my muscle tension. Light some candles, and throw in a Lush bath bomb or a bubble bar. I also have one of those bath boards that sits across my tub, so I can read or I can watch Netflix on my iPad. Honestly, sometimes I even do homework in the bath (but I wouldn't recommend that for relaxing)! 

2. Read or Watch a Movie - For some people this works and for some people it doesn't. It's just a way to really get your brain focusing on something else, other than what is currently stressing you out. Reading for me is the best because it's such an involved experience. If you aren't a big reader, or you are just too scatter-brained to read, watch a movie. I prefer feel good movies for this, so if I'm in a bad mood or feeling anxious, I watch a kid's movie or a chick flick. I love Pixar (or other animated films) and one of my favorite guilty pleasure movies is "Legally Blonde".

3. Clean - This is another one that might not work for everyone. Sometimes if my apartment is too messy, it just adds to how anxious I am feeling. It's extremely unfortunate because I'm not the most organized person ever. Let's get real, my bathroom is usually an explosion of clothes and beauty products (I'm working on this!!!). If you are a clean freak, this can definitely help. You always feel good after everything is clean and fresh and scrubbing your counter tops can be really therapeutic.

4. Yoga - Yoga has gotten pretty big in the last 5 years or so. I am definitely a yoga newbie, I've never taken a class and I can't give much advice on it. I don't do yoga daily, I just do it at home in my living room, a couple times a week.There's a reason people like it so much, it's sooo good for you, in more ways than one. You're getting in exercise, you're strengthening your body, you're stretching and relaxing and when you're done, you feel amazing. I recommend using the app "Yoga Studio". I can't remember exactly but it's in the $3-$4 range. It's worth it if you are interested in yoga and have no idea what you're doing. Especially if you are just looking to do it at home and aren't ready or wanting to take a class. It offers tons of classes, ranging anywhere from 4 mins to an hour and they offer everything from beginner to advanced, yoga for relaxation, yoga for back pain, etc. I see improvements in my mood when I use it and even 15 minutes of yoga makes my arms sore!

5. Meditation - Meditation is something that gets talked about a lot but not actually done. This one is pretty recent to me after I did some reading up on it. The act of intentionally clearing our minds and practicing mindfulness can really help with our stress levels. I am also such a newbie at this, I've been using another app (I know, I know, I just really love apps). It's called "Calm". The app offers all kinds of awesome scenery sounds (think rain, the ocean, summer meadows, a fireplace, etc.). They also offer a "7 Days of Calm" meditation, it's 10 minutes a day and it's a guided meditation that teaches you the basics and helps to get you started. The app has TONS of other meditations for anything and everything you can think of - but there is a membership fee, I believe $30 or $40 a year. I haven't taken the plunge to purchase the membership yet but I'm considering it. 

6. Magnesium Supplement - The original "Chill Pill". I have to put in a little disclaimer here, some people don't like or believe in taking supplements and a lot of times there is insufficient evidence in some of the claims that they make. I'm not a doctor, so I can't give medical advice. If you are having serious issues with anxiety, depression or stress you should seek the help of your physician. I started taking a Magnesium supplement after I heard that it can help with your stress levels. Maybe it's all in my head, but I feel like when I am taking it, it really helps me to feel more relaxed. Magnesium is important for a lot of functions within our bodies, it helps with growth and maintenance of our bones, it's required for the proper function of nerves and muscles, it can also help neutralize stomach acid and help with bowel movements. The majority of people are mildly deficient in it. Fibrous foods typically contain magnesium, so that's a good place to start if you wish to supplement those foods into your diet to gain the nutrient naturally. Here is a list of foods containing magnesium. I will also include a couple of articles (one from WebMD and one from Psychology Today), if you wish to do some more reading. The supplement I take is a powdered supplement, in a lemon flavor, it's very similar to Emergen-C (if you've taken one of those before). I'm not a huge fan of powdered products, so I add it into my smoothies and I can't even taste it! You can get the one I use at Vitacost. It comes in a variety of different flavors.

What are your favorite fixes for stress? 

- C

* I am not affiliated with any of the apps mentioned, they are apps I discovered on my own and paid my own money for! (:

My Favorite Pens

My favorite pens of all time are the Seven-Year Pens from Seltzer Goods

They are a ball-point, black ink, medium tip pen. They are eco-friendly, swiss-made and contain what they say to be a 7-year ink supply. The concept behind this pen is that there are 100 million pens discarded every day (I can't say I'm not guilty from contributing to this), this pen claims to be able to write 1.7 meters (or about 5.5 feet) every day for seven years. Obviously, writing more or less than this can prolong or shorten the life span of the pen. I'm a big writer, I write in planners, I journal on a daily basis, I make to-do lists and the average lifespan of a pen for me (assuming I'm using the same one consistently), is usually only a few months (if that). Some of the pens I own are newer than others but a couple of the pens I have been using religiously for about a year now and they are still going strong! Not to mention, if you are a ballpoint fan like me, they write like a dream! 

These pens retail for $8.95 and the refills are only $1.99 (Crazy cheap if you ask me)! 
Plus they are all so cute!!! The ones pictured are all of the ones that I currently own but I definitely want more of them. 

I originally discovered these pens at a local bookstore called Changing Hands in Tempe, Arizona. My first one was the Unicorn pen, gifted to me by my sister. So you might be able to find these at a local or indie bookstore near you. I don't know of anywhere to purchase these where I live, so I order them directly from the Seltzer Goods website! 

Have you tried these pens? If so, do you like them? 

Happy Writing! 

- C

* I am not affiliated with Seltzer Goods or Changing Hands bookstore, these pens were purchased by me with my own money!